Spring is coming, hold on Lookout

61 degrees in MS. yes I will survive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4p27m5Y5b4

Plans

I am, unlike up to 10% of us, still gainfully and well-employed. I am able to pay bills and give to charity. I have the option of helping my family get by. I have, however, had to curtail much of the life I've written of here. I loved my years with "Him." But I don't know if we can go forward from here. I feel that together we created chaos, though it was quite inventive, but it seemd to be carreening out of control, perhaps only mine. I miss him and will walk on, but question whether I was goood for him or not, in the end. I feel richer for having met him, but am not sure the years with me have been good for him as a person.

Still it is good to be able to plan. Whether we make it (or if there is even a 'we') to Froliccon is open. I have made a good head way in my debts and have different ideas about work and what I want from it. I have come to understand some of what made us click as a couple of not very renegades. I only hope I can help him, and that I can be a better partner, at the same time helping him to see how we might go forward, better, together.